If you happen to be reading this, you are actually missing me :)
Its not wrong to miss someone, but rather its a good thing actually. Missing someone means you actually care for that certain person. This could be my last blog until the year end holidays. So I wanna describe how much I miss you guys (people in BJ), slowly, and hopefully you'll understand my condition.
Every time you miss me, I think about you 3x more.
Every time you cry missing me, or the good times we shared together, I cry missing you back, hoping to relive those times, but knowing how that's such a lie.
Every time I pass a class of F3 learning Geo, my eyes turn red but I control myself, knowing we can never go through that again, never able to talk about how we used to do like 3-4 exercise books of Geo.
Every time I hear Aorta, Vena Cava, or Left Atrium, I turn sad, knowing I cant say, "Hey, do you remember we used to learn this in Form 3?" to the people I struggled together to achieve greatness.
The only way I can NOT miss you guys, is to make myself busy with the school (SAS). Rugby, the people there, and so on. But what after? It comes back. I try so hard not to break. But after the MAC in BJ yesterday, that night, I couldn't hold myself. It was so hard. It took me over 2 months to finally break. Damn I was feeling so down yesterday night. Remembering all those times we had, at SMKBJ, but I understand, we can't have fun all the time right? There are allways challenges at every corner, and we have to overcome it so that we become a better person. If life was all about fun and enjoying yourself, then it wouldn't be called life would it? It would be heaven. :)
I just wanna say, I wanna let you guys know, if you ever miss us, and you guys are wondering whether we ever think or miss you guys, you can bet that we think of you guys, wayyy more than you think of us.
Hoping to bring back the good times, your dear friend,
Ahmad Haziq bin Ahmad Azman
